Hello, dear ones!
Yesterday, just in time for Amma’s birthday, I released a CD online. I’ve decided to call it Devotion, and release it under the moniker Tomas Muriel.
Most of my life I’ve gone by the name Tom, but before I was born my Dad wanted to name me Tomas. My Mom wanted Tom, and she won 😉 Using the name Tomas is about honoring my Dad and the qualities he has brought into my life, stability, confidence, competence, hard work and perseverance.
Muriel is a name that came to me while I was contemplating my guardian angel. It came in and felt right. Uriel is a more well-known angel, the angel of fire and light. Muriel, for me, is Ma + Uriel, the M brings in the presence of the Holy Mother and softens Uriel’s fire into a graceful, guiding light. Like Kuan Yin, Muriel for me is androgynous, a marriage of masculine and feminine qualities. Muriel can be male or female, depending on your perspective, or what you need in the moment. What a scary thing, to be so undefined!
According to this webpage, Muriel allows us to get in touch with our deepest emotions, which is what writing this music has been all about for me. According to this page, Muriel is the angel of healing pets, finding love and peace, and making your garden grow! I love this tenderness and innocence. I love pets, flowers and children. This is where I really see the divine, in the effortless blossoming of a flower, in the ecstatic playfulness and boundless energy of a child, in the simple being of a pet’s presence. And making this music has been about growing my garden, about tending to the blossoms of my soul and seeing what emerges from my own process of diving into the emotional depths.
My prayer is that I can share all of this through the music I have created, in the service of bringing us all closer to the divine. I have found that devotion is not always a comfortable process, as it takes us through the dark night of the soul and destabilizes our ideas about who we are, why we are here, and what the future holds. In true devotion, everything is shaken to the very core, and all we can do is cry out to some power that seems so very far from our hearts…
This album is existential, it is not about ideas about this spiritual tradition or the other, or right and wrong ways to live. It is about recognizing the common human themes that bridge all the various traditions and cultural expressions of the world. It is about seeing every song as a song of longing and satisfaction, praise and plea, separation and reunion, fall and redemption. It is about surrendering to our own emotional nature, and finding a peace or freedom in that very surrender. That is the invitation I extend through this music, and I hope you take it.
I hope you listen, enjoy, allow yourself to be moved, and share this with anyone you feel would be open to receiving it. And even if you don’t, I hope this joy brings you some inspiration of your own. Many blessings, may you all be happy.